{"id":189,"date":"2025-07-24T11:36:57","date_gmt":"2025-07-24T09:36:57","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/tinkino.org\/en\/?page_id=189"},"modified":"2026-05-02T07:43:30","modified_gmt":"2026-05-02T05:43:30","slug":"ich-war-auch-damals-wirklich-ich-aber-nur-in-meinem-kopf","status":"publish","type":"page","link":"https:\/\/tinkino.org\/en\/archive\/tink-2025\/programme-25\/shorts\/ich-war-auch-damals-wirklich-ich-aber-nur-in-meinem-kopf\/","title":{"rendered":"Ich war auch damals wirklich ich, aber nur in meinem Kopf"},"content":{"rendered":"\n<div class=\"wp-block-group alignfull is-style-default has-global-padding is-layout-constrained wp-container-core-group-is-layout-8304cb6c wp-block-group-is-layout-constrained\" style=\"margin-top:var(--wp--preset--spacing--20);margin-bottom:var(--wp--preset--spacing--20);padding-top:0;padding-right:0;padding-bottom:0;padding-left:0\">\n<div class=\"wp-block-group alignwide is-style-default is-layout-flow wp-container-core-group-is-layout-cd7755c8 wp-block-group-is-layout-flow\" style=\"margin-top:0;margin-bottom:0;padding-top:0;padding-right:0;padding-bottom:0;padding-left:0\">\n<figure class=\"wp-block-image size-full has-custom-border\" style=\"margin-bottom:var(--wp--preset--spacing--30)\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" width=\"1340\" height=\"754\" src=\"https:\/\/tinkino.org\/en\/wp-content\/uploads\/sites\/3\/2025\/07\/TINK-SHORT-Ichwarauchdamalswirklichich.webp\" alt=\"Person lies on grass and looks directly into the camera.\" class=\"wp-image-81\" style=\"border-radius:1px\" srcset=\"https:\/\/tinkino.org\/en\/wp-content\/uploads\/sites\/3\/2025\/07\/TINK-SHORT-Ichwarauchdamalswirklichich.webp 1340w, https:\/\/tinkino.org\/en\/wp-content\/uploads\/sites\/3\/2025\/07\/TINK-SHORT-Ichwarauchdamalswirklichich-300x169.webp 300w, https:\/\/tinkino.org\/en\/wp-content\/uploads\/sites\/3\/2025\/07\/TINK-SHORT-Ichwarauchdamalswirklichich-1024x576.webp 1024w, https:\/\/tinkino.org\/en\/wp-content\/uploads\/sites\/3\/2025\/07\/TINK-SHORT-Ichwarauchdamalswirklichich-768x432.webp 768w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 1340px) 100vw, 1340px\" \/><\/figure>\n\n\n\n<h2 class=\"wp-block-heading has-custom-734895-color has-text-color has-link-color wp-elements-ef9bea003148624b636020cd5c5704a2\" style=\"padding-top:var(--wp--preset--spacing--30);padding-right:var(--wp--preset--spacing--40);padding-bottom:0;padding-left:var(--wp--preset--spacing--30);font-size:clamp(2.2em, 2.2rem + ((1vw - 0.2em) * 2.824), 4em);letter-spacing:2px;line-height:1.1\">Ich war auch damals wirklich ich, aber nur in meinem Kopf<\/h2>\n\n\n\n<div class=\"wp-block-columns is-layout-flex wp-container-core-columns-is-layout-d3d8ad1c wp-block-columns-is-layout-flex\" style=\"margin-top:var(--wp--preset--spacing--30);margin-bottom:0;padding-top:0;padding-right:0;padding-bottom:0;padding-left:0\">\n<div class=\"wp-block-column is-vertically-aligned-top is-layout-flow wp-block-column-is-layout-flow\" style=\"padding-top:0;padding-right:var(--wp--preset--spacing--30);padding-bottom:0;padding-left:var(--wp--preset--spacing--30);flex-basis:70%\">\n<h2 class=\"wp-block-heading has-custom-734895-color has-text-color has-link-color wp-elements-2c845c6f59894b23969808da31fe6d30\">I was myself back then too, but only in my head<\/h2>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\" style=\"margin-bottom:var(--wp--preset--spacing--50);line-height:1.5\">Maurice compares his attitude toward life with that of an ancient vampire. This short documentary playfully examines this image. But what does this tell us about the life of a 64-year-old transgender man?<br>Using shadow play, interview texts read in the studio and stagings of carefully researched situations, the film creates a multi-layered portrait that provides space for anger and feelings of liberation.<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\" style=\"margin-bottom:var(--wp--preset--spacing--50);line-height:1.5\">This is followed by a discussion with Maurice an Julia K\u00fcllmer<br><br><\/p>\n<\/div>\n\n\n\n<div class=\"wp-block-column is-vertically-aligned-top is-style-section-1 has-background is-layout-flow wp-block-column-is-layout-flow is-style-section-1--1\" style=\"background-color:#f7faf3;flex-basis:30%\">\n<div class=\"wp-block-group has-custom-e-2-d-7-ee-background-color has-background is-nowrap is-layout-flex wp-container-core-group-is-layout-50d5d8bc wp-block-group-is-layout-flex\" style=\"padding-top:0;padding-right:0;padding-bottom:0;padding-left:0\">\n<p class=\"has-text-align-center is-style-default has-base-color has-text-color has-background has-link-color wp-elements-72f9826a2b5765ec32917d783e369add wp-block-paragraph\" style=\"background-color:#734895;padding-top:var(--wp--preset--spacing--20);padding-right:var(--wp--preset--spacing--20);padding-bottom:var(--wp--preset--spacing--20);padding-left:var(--wp--preset--spacing--20);font-style:normal;font-weight:500\">06.09.<br>2025<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"wp-block-paragraph\" style=\"padding-top:var(--wp--preset--spacing--20);padding-right:var(--wp--preset--spacing--20);padding-bottom:var(--wp--preset--spacing--20);padding-left:var(--wp--preset--spacing--20);font-style:normal;font-weight:500\">6 pm<br>B-Movie<\/p>\n<\/div>\n\n\n\n<div class=\"wp-block-group is-vertical is-content-justification-left is-layout-flex wp-container-core-group-is-layout-3eb6cf4b wp-block-group-is-layout-flex\" style=\"padding-top:0;padding-right:var(--wp--preset--spacing--30);padding-bottom:0;padding-left:var(--wp--preset--spacing--30)\">\n<div class=\"wp-block-group is-vertical is-layout-flex wp-container-core-group-is-layout-a3097ba4 wp-block-group-is-layout-flex\" style=\"padding-top:0;padding-right:0;padding-bottom:0;padding-left:0\">\n<p class=\"has-small-font-size wp-block-paragraph\" style=\"font-style:normal;font-weight:400;text-transform:uppercase\">Director<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"has-medium-font-size wp-block-paragraph\" style=\"font-style:normal;font-weight:500\">Julia K\u00fcllmer<\/p>\n<\/div>\n\n\n\n<div class=\"wp-block-group is-vertical is-layout-flex wp-container-core-group-is-layout-a3097ba4 wp-block-group-is-layout-flex\" style=\"padding-top:0;padding-right:0;padding-bottom:0;padding-left:0\">\n<p class=\"has-small-font-size wp-block-paragraph\" style=\"font-style:normal;font-weight:400;text-transform:uppercase\">Country<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"has-medium-font-size wp-block-paragraph\" style=\"font-style:normal;font-weight:500\">Deutschland<\/p>\n<\/div>\n\n\n\n<div class=\"wp-block-group is-vertical is-layout-flex wp-container-core-group-is-layout-186f59e1 wp-block-group-is-layout-flex\" style=\"padding-right:0;padding-left:0\">\n<p class=\"has-small-font-size wp-block-paragraph\" style=\"font-style:normal;font-weight:400;text-transform:uppercase\">Year<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"has-medium-font-size wp-block-paragraph\" style=\"font-style:normal;font-weight:500\">2024<\/p>\n<\/div>\n\n\n\n<div class=\"wp-block-group is-vertical is-layout-flex wp-container-core-group-is-layout-186f59e1 wp-block-group-is-layout-flex\" style=\"padding-right:0;padding-left:0\">\n<p class=\"has-small-font-size wp-block-paragraph\" style=\"font-style:normal;font-weight:400;text-transform:uppercase\">Runtime<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"has-medium-font-size wp-block-paragraph\" style=\"font-style:normal;font-weight:500\">26 min.<\/p>\n<\/div>\n\n\n\n<div class=\"wp-block-group is-vertical is-layout-flex wp-container-core-group-is-layout-186f59e1 wp-block-group-is-layout-flex\" style=\"padding-right:0;padding-left:0\">\n<p class=\"has-small-font-size wp-block-paragraph\" style=\"font-style:normal;font-weight:400;text-transform:uppercase\">Language<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"has-medium-font-size wp-block-paragraph\" style=\"font-style:normal;font-weight:500\">German<\/p>\n<\/div>\n\n\n\n<div class=\"wp-block-group is-vertical is-layout-flex wp-container-core-group-is-layout-186f59e1 wp-block-group-is-layout-flex\" style=\"padding-right:0;padding-left:0\">\n<p class=\"has-small-font-size wp-block-paragraph\" style=\"font-style:normal;font-weight:400;text-transform:uppercase\">Format<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"has-medium-font-size wp-block-paragraph\" style=\"font-style:normal;font-weight:500\">digital<\/p>\n<\/div>\n\n\n\n<div class=\"wp-block-group is-vertical is-layout-flex wp-container-core-group-is-layout-af93b0d8 wp-block-group-is-layout-flex\" style=\"margin-top:var(--wp--preset--spacing--30);margin-bottom:0;padding-right:0;padding-left:0\">\n<p class=\"has-small-font-size wp-block-paragraph\" style=\"font-style:normal;font-weight:400;text-transform:uppercase\">Social<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"has-medium-font-size wp-block-paragraph\" style=\"font-style:normal;font-weight:500\"><a href=\"https:\/\/www.instagram.com\/juliakuellmer\/#\" target=\"_blank\" rel=\"noreferrer noopener\">@juliakuellmer<\/a><\/p>\n<\/div>\n\n\n\n<div class=\"wp-block-group is-vertical is-layout-flex wp-container-core-group-is-layout-65d5099e wp-block-group-is-layout-flex\" style=\"margin-top:0;margin-bottom:var(--wp--preset--spacing--40);padding-right:0;padding-left:0\">\n<p class=\"has-small-font-size wp-block-paragraph\" style=\"font-style:normal;font-weight:400;text-transform:uppercase\">Web<\/p>\n\n\n\n<p class=\"has-medium-font-size wp-block-paragraph\" style=\"font-style:normal;font-weight:500\"><a href=\"https:\/\/www.transinterqueer.org\/\" 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